Hey, Mark, you know. I just want to tell you. I've never been like this before. So I don't think it's all me. I think you're kind of helping it along. And I'm gonna call my mother soon. And I know she's sleeping and she's sick. And it's 11:23. And I'm gonna ask her to call you, because I keep telling you that you're gonna take care of me. And I don't want to do that. I don't have anybody else here. So can you please call me back. How can you be so cold to me. Even if we fight? I have told you I loved you more than anything. Anything in this world. And I just need a friend right now.
Well, you know. I just don't understand how you could be so mean, but I guess if you could be this mean right now, you'll be even worse if we were ever to be married. And it's a good thing I'm learning this now. Cause you sure don't have any soft spot in your heart. You know what, unless it's your way. And I can honestly say, I don't hate a lot of people, but I hate you. Because, you know what, you've tortured me, and you've made me feel like shit, and you've said it verbally. You know I never professed to be perfect, Mark, but you know what I would never tell you that I don't want to be with you. I would never do things without you and run away and tell you I don't feel the same way anymore and I don't care. And you know what, you've pretty much done all. So I guess this is what you wanted. I guess, you wanted me to hate you, so you've made it pretty easy. And you were the one person that I had here that I really truly thought cared about me. But what I've learned recently is very [click to continue...]
Dear God, I'm just praying. Please. Please, be a friend to me. Please. I'm praying to God that you will. Please just be a friend to me. Why do you have to be so cruel? Why do you have to be so cruel to me? I don't know. I tried to do, to make this work out. I just wanted. I want you to be a friend to me and help me.
You know, you're making me go out of my mind. And I'm not kidding. I'm not kidding. I can't handle this like you can. I'm begging you as a human being to please call me back. Please call me back. Please call me back, I'm not doing well. Please call me back. You know, as a human being, please. As someone who once cared about me, can you please call me back. Please. Please.
You know, and that was my biggest fear about doing this phone thing, because, you know, I was trying to do it on good faith, knowing that you'd help me with it, and you'd make it priority and you know, it would be okay regardless. And it's not. And my cell phone's disconnected as of tomorrow. And I need to call AT&T right now to reinstate my cell phone. And I guess I'm fucked again. Because you know what, I put faith in this, us, and you helping me out with this. And I'm not gonna listen to you over voicemail how to set up my voicemail. There's a lot of other things on this stupid phone that I don't even know how to operate. So I'm paying for something I don't even know how to use. So can you do me a favor and let me know what to do with this thing, I don't know. And I'm not trying to be a prick, but you know what, I don't know what to do. I have no cell phone as of tomorrow because I trusted you.
Oh and by the way, I just realized. You know, if you're worried about me doing anything crazy, I'm not going to. Because I value my life too much. Don't worry, I would never kill myself, especially over you. So, I'll be fine. Okay? Goodbye.
Maybe you're meeting another chick right now. Maybe that's why you can't take these calls, check anymore voice mails, huh? All I know is I wouldn't wish this on anyone. And you know, Mark, despite the fact that we didn't get along, I don't know why you wanna do this to me. And I don't want to hate you, I love you. Why did you have to do this to me? I don't understand.
Um, I would really like you to call me tonight. It's now 10:37 and there's not much time left and this night is fucked. And, uh, our relationship is fucked. Because you don't want to make it work. And, oh I know, it's fucked for a lot of other reasons, right? But, in any event, I have a ticket on hold for Friday to go back to Allentown. And I'm gonna tell my boss that I can't make it next week for this training because I have a family crisis. And, I, honestly I can't do this anymore, Mark. I'm not fucking around. I need to know that you care about me. And that this isn't just one of your valleys, and that you're gonna come apologizing in a day or two or maybe a couple days, and your'e going to be feeling bad and feeling like you miss me, and feeling sorry for everything. I love you and I need to know that you love me. I gotta get out of here. I can't stand it anymore. I don't want to be alone anymore. And if it's the risk of losing my job and losing everything, what do I got here: [click to continue...]
Hi, Good Evening. It's T. J. We, uh we exchanged email about I don't know about week ago and I should've called you sooner, but I think I've been kinda crazy busy, so I was out now. I want to gimme a call. Anyhow, would love to chat. I won't be available until after 8 but would love to have you call me back or I'll call you back number is XXX-XXX-XXXX. Again, my name is TJ. Talk to you soon. Bye.
Hey honey just wanted to call you to let you know you looked real sexy today when I left for work, sleeping there with the dogs…anyway, I love you, I'll talk to ya, just, be thinkin about ya all day.
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